Things have been so busy i keep meaning to come on and do an update but keep skipping it! But here i am! Things are going great! I have not had a drink for well over a month now and it feels great! my body feels younger then it has in years and my head is clearer then i think it has ever been!
These feelings just promote the want & drive to keep going on this new journey i have set for myself, the journey of freedom and success!
I want to talk a little about how my body feels younger and my head feels clearer!
For years i had very little activity in my life, walking to and from my car was about as active as i got most days, i always new it was bad, and occasionally tried to increase it but never managed to do much more then a few days then fall back into the routine of slackness, i'm lucky in the sense that i have not had a huge problem with weight so that was another reason in my head not needing to exercise more.
But that has changed, for the past month i have been doing push ups, squats and sit ups on a daily basis, I've also been walking every other day, and staying active on the weekends in the garden and playing with the kids. It feels great to be active, and i feel as if the drinking was what was holding me back, my goal is to keep up the active lifestyle and slowly increase my workouts to be more intense and rewarding in gains.
My head feels free, i am no longer arguing with myself about drinking, and boy has it released a huge amount pressure and saved a hole heap of energy! The decision not to drink is now an automatic one most days, and it doesn't get a second thought, this 2 months ago seemed impossible as every day i was fighting and arguing myself as to why i shouldn't drink, but giving into the compulsion by the end of the day! To have that head space back feels great, and clear! My memory is working better and my task list is getting done alot more efficiently & effectively. My goal is to learn and read as much i can every day, and to start setting my alarm earlier to allow morning time for myself, to fit in things like more intense workouts as above etc.
Success built from failure,
The Alcoholic Entrepreneur
www.thealcoholicentrepreneur.com
Tuesday, 31 March 2015
Monday, 16 March 2015
How it all started Part 1
I've written so far about my short journey heading into Alcoholics Anonymous, i thought it would be a good idea to reflect on how i ended up in the situation to lead me down this path.
As a child i never liked the idea of drinking and consistently said i would never drink, i watched my parents and there friends drink at gatherings and parties, not excessively for Australian culture but still many more then your recommend standard drinks in this day and age!
But little did i know i had my teenage years ahead of me and as we all know allot changes during this time of your life, my friends started to change and i began heading out at night on my own for the first time in my life, albeit with a strict 9pm curfew, this at began when i was 15.
By the time i had turned 16 i had extended my curfew to 10pm and had started to bare witness to alcohol use, it wasn't long till i had tried my first drink shortly followed by my first drunken experience.
Parties started becoming a weekly thing and they all involved alcohol i was drinking most weekends almost definitely every second weekend, and come school holidays it was a 3, 4 night a week party! these were exciting fun times! little did i know i was setting myself up for a problem later in a life.
Success built from failure,
The Alcoholic Entrepreneur
www.thealcoholicentrepreneur.com
As a child i never liked the idea of drinking and consistently said i would never drink, i watched my parents and there friends drink at gatherings and parties, not excessively for Australian culture but still many more then your recommend standard drinks in this day and age!
But little did i know i had my teenage years ahead of me and as we all know allot changes during this time of your life, my friends started to change and i began heading out at night on my own for the first time in my life, albeit with a strict 9pm curfew, this at began when i was 15.
By the time i had turned 16 i had extended my curfew to 10pm and had started to bare witness to alcohol use, it wasn't long till i had tried my first drink shortly followed by my first drunken experience.
Parties started becoming a weekly thing and they all involved alcohol i was drinking most weekends almost definitely every second weekend, and come school holidays it was a 3, 4 night a week party! these were exciting fun times! little did i know i was setting myself up for a problem later in a life.
Success built from failure,
The Alcoholic Entrepreneur
www.thealcoholicentrepreneur.com
Friday, 13 March 2015
4 Weeks without a drink
I've been struggling to make the time to get to this blog but i really do think it helps and am going to make an effort to update it twice weekly!
I've been sober now for 4 weeks now, we recently went on a family holiday over to the Gold Coast, i am from Perth Western Australia, the holiday was great however it through up a few challenges, the main being that everyone was drinking, the second one being that it rained majority of the time we were there and there wasn't a great deal to do. That being the case i used those two out my control elements to talk myself into drinking. I drank two nights while i was over there writing myself off both times, consequently turning the following two days into hang over bliss (Not)
The second of those two drinking sessions was different, different in a way i don't fully understand and will find hard to describe but i will do my best. I have heard in a few of my AA meetings that some of the members have had an epiphany, that moment they committed to change committed to beat the disease that is alcohol. The best way i can describe it is as that, i sat there drinking at the beach lessening to the waves crash down, thinking why am i doing this, why am i sat by myself drinking, i don't enjoy this i don't enjoy the taste, i don't enjoy the feeling it is giving me, i don't enjoy the feeling i am going to feel tomorrow i don't enjoy the problems it is going to cause with my partner. WHY AM I DOING THIS? I had no answer!
I still to this day have no answer, but i still to this day have also not picked up a drink, I have attended only one AA meeting since that night, and that was tonight it helps to be around people going through the same thing and it helps keeping you focused just as writing here does!
I'm going to leave this at that for tonight, i would really appreciate some feedback and anyone going through the same thing to comment as i do believe it helps! i want the help and i want to give back!
Success built from failure,
The Alcoholic Entrepreneur
www.thealcoholicentrepreneur.com
I've been sober now for 4 weeks now, we recently went on a family holiday over to the Gold Coast, i am from Perth Western Australia, the holiday was great however it through up a few challenges, the main being that everyone was drinking, the second one being that it rained majority of the time we were there and there wasn't a great deal to do. That being the case i used those two out my control elements to talk myself into drinking. I drank two nights while i was over there writing myself off both times, consequently turning the following two days into hang over bliss (Not)
The second of those two drinking sessions was different, different in a way i don't fully understand and will find hard to describe but i will do my best. I have heard in a few of my AA meetings that some of the members have had an epiphany, that moment they committed to change committed to beat the disease that is alcohol. The best way i can describe it is as that, i sat there drinking at the beach lessening to the waves crash down, thinking why am i doing this, why am i sat by myself drinking, i don't enjoy this i don't enjoy the taste, i don't enjoy the feeling it is giving me, i don't enjoy the feeling i am going to feel tomorrow i don't enjoy the problems it is going to cause with my partner. WHY AM I DOING THIS? I had no answer!
I still to this day have no answer, but i still to this day have also not picked up a drink, I have attended only one AA meeting since that night, and that was tonight it helps to be around people going through the same thing and it helps keeping you focused just as writing here does!
I'm going to leave this at that for tonight, i would really appreciate some feedback and anyone going through the same thing to comment as i do believe it helps! i want the help and i want to give back!
Success built from failure,
The Alcoholic Entrepreneur
www.thealcoholicentrepreneur.com
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