4 Weeks without a drink

I've been struggling to make the time to get to this blog but i really do think it helps and am going to make an effort to update it twice weekly!

I've been sober now for 4 weeks now, we recently went on a family holiday over to the Gold Coast, i am from Perth Western Australia, the holiday was great however it through up a few challenges, the main being that everyone was drinking, the second one being that it rained majority of the time we were there and there wasn't a great deal to do. That being the case i used those two out my control elements to talk myself into drinking. I drank two nights while i was over there writing myself off both times, consequently turning the following two days into hang over bliss (Not)

The second of those two drinking sessions was different, different in a way i don't fully understand and will find hard to describe but i will do my best. I have heard in a few of my AA meetings that some of the members have had an epiphany, that moment they committed to change committed to beat the disease that is alcohol. The best way i can describe it is as that, i sat there drinking at the beach lessening to the waves crash down, thinking why am i doing this, why am i sat by myself drinking, i don't enjoy this i don't enjoy the taste, i don't enjoy the feeling it is giving me, i don't enjoy the feeling i am going to feel tomorrow i don't enjoy the problems it is going to cause with my partner. WHY AM I DOING THIS? I had no answer!

I still to this day have no answer, but i still to this day have also not picked up a drink, I have attended only one AA meeting since that night, and that was tonight it helps to be around people going through the same thing and it helps keeping you focused just as writing here does!

I'm going to leave this at that for tonight, i would really appreciate some feedback and anyone going through the same thing to comment as i do believe it helps! i want the help and i want to give back!


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