Bachelor Party Power

The Bachelor party has come and gone, and things went well for me at least.

The beer fridge for the night

As expected the theme for the night was Alcohol and as much as possible for some! I arrived at 4pm on the invite it said "from 3pm" from the minute I arrived it was clear people had been drinking long before 3pm the buck was already slurring his words and the beers were flowing freely! 

I got asked if i wanted a drink within 5 minutes of being there which i replied "yeah I'll grab a coke" the puzzled look on the face of my mate was priceless, but he obliged and came back with a beer for himself and 2 others and a coke for me. I had multiple people ask me during the night why I was drinking coke water or whatever I had in my hand at the time, which I generally just replied I'm driving, that would generally move the conversation on. 

There were at least 10 bottles of alcohol inside and shots were also flowing freely, this was the only mental challenge I found myself in during the night, knowing I could have had three or four shots in quick concession and got myself to a similar state of mind to most others. 

But I stayed true and they remained all but a quick thought that I pushed out of my head as quick as they came in. 

You may be wondering why I titled this post as I did, well it's because of the power I felt, not just the power within myself for having the control to choose not to drink in the first place or to push the small thoughts of having shots out of my head, but the power I felt in general being what felt like the only sober person there, i felt I had an advantage, An advantage of wit, an advantage of memory and an advantage of every day common sense.

The biggest thing I take from the night is that alcohol gives you a major false sense of security, it makes you feel confident, it makes you feel smart, it makes you feel powerful, but the real power sits with those who chose to remain sober! 

Success built from failure,
The Alcoholic Entrepreneur

www.thealcoholicentrepreneur.com

Bachelor Party

Tomorrow i have my first real test, A long standing friend of mine is getting married and it's his last single days Hoorah, being organized by his rather irresponsible older brother, going off the updates on the Facebook events page this thing is going to get a little mess!

Normally i would be planning what and how much i was drinking, what time i would be starting so i arrived already half cut ready to go and trying to work out how i was getting too and from the event.

But instead i am looking forward to a relaxing drive down (it's a few hours away) liking the fact i have the freedom to leave when ever i want and am intrigued to see if i'll enjoy being around highly intoxicated people stoned cold sober.

It all feels new, and i would be lying if i said i wasn't a little excited. wish me luck guys and i'll be updating soon after!


Success built from failure,
The Alcoholic Entrepreneur

3 Months Conquered

A couple of days ago i reached the 3 month mark, 3 months since i aloud alcohol to rule my life and it feels great. 

3 months is a good effort and i feel happy about it, however i am well aware i have a long way to go. The urge to drink is still there and i still think about alcohol from time to time,  so i still need to be 100% focused on where i want to be in my life and what i need to to do to get there.

Passing the 3 month time frame i feel it is time to take the next step and start putting to use my new found time, ambition and much healthier financial situation. 

At this stage my plan is to build a home base (Website) to help document and categorize my journey and growth as a human and as an entrepreneur. 

This Journey is a marathon and will last the rest of my life, what i make of it is completely up to me, one thing i know for sure is i have given myself a much higher chance of succeeding in many parts of my life without alcohol being a part of it.

Success built from failure, 

The Alcoholic Entrepreneur

www.thealcoholicentrepreneur.com

Searching

Since that last drink back on the 22nd of February 2015 something has been missing, obviously alcohol was a huge part of my life so that was to be expected, But it felt deep, it felt like loosing a close friend of many years, a friend i could turn to no matter what the situation, I'd drank solidly for 15 years, taking that away and knowing I won't ever be going back was emotional & scary and left me feeling empty & confused  even though it was 100% the right thing to do!

Those feelings are getting easier with every day that passes but I still feel this strong urge of missing something,  My Coke and soft drink intake has increased since stopping, i guess as a alternative to make the transition easier at least I thought, but over the past week I have started drinking stronger caffeinated drinks I've never enjoyed coffee and hardly ever drank it, but for some reason one day last week I grabbed one out of the deli fridge when i was getting my lunch and since then i can't seem to get enough of them, it isn't the taste I am craving it is the mild caffeine hit I am getting,

Is this my mind compensating for the alcohol? is it a wise to keep drinking these or am I heading in a dangerous direction? one part of me is saying just to go with it, it's just coffee, another is saying will I want to graduate from this like I did from coke? where will it end? what is it I am chasing?

One thing is for sure, I am aware of it and I am going to be bringing it up in my next AA meeting.

Success built from failure, 

The Alcoholic Entrepreneur

www.thealcoholicentrepreneur.com

My Weekends

Weekends were what i most looked forward to in my life and not for the right reasons. It wasn't because i got time to spend with my family or work on small projects & goals, it was because it gave me a chance to drink and drink without worrying i have my one committed obligation (Work) the next day, Alcohol took priority over everything but work.

It turned into a trend, a life style my weekends were dominated by alcohol.
I thought it was fun, i thought it was normal i'd come to think there was nothing else. It was hard to imagine my life with out alcohol let alone on a weekend!

Me on the left with a Mate of mine in 2006

Drinking straight alcohol became a normal and accepted thing for me, i'd drink it till i blacked out, i'd have no memory of my actions and no care in the world. I'm surprised and extremely lucky i never hurt myself, or worse anybody else!

But things have changed, i now look forward to the weekends for the right reasons.

I am writing this post from my couch with the movie Surrogates on in the back ground. I'm comfortable relaxed and i'm enjoying it, This may be a normal Friday night to allot of people, but for me it's new and it feels great!

Success built from failure,
The Alcoholic Entrepreneur

www.thealcoholicentrepreneur.com

This Can't be a Bad thing.

It's been almost a month since i last wrote, and normally i would be a bit disappointed in not making more effort to have at least added a weekly update, however it has been an extremely busy and productive month so i'll let it slip.

I started working on my backyard around the same time as i stopped drinking, trimming back and removing a rather over grown over planted space, the work and the idea's have increased over the weeks with me getting better and faster at starting and finishing projects. One project i have started and am half through currently is brick paving a rather large area of the yard, I've never done any paving before so luckily i have helping hand from my mate Mark who has some experience in the area.

I have also started a Facebook page called BustedBrands, The page as the name suggest's is a collection of brands that have gone belly up. The likes are trickling in and it is beginning to get a bit of traction, i am really enjoying reading about old companies and how and why they lost the battle to continue in our massively competitive world. I have registered the domain name Bustedbrands.com and plan to build a website to catalog the all the brands that are no more. i am excited about this project and am looking forward to watching it grow, and document it in these blogs.

My brain is feeling free, my mind is clearer enjoying and embracing the thoughts, idea's and emotions i am feeling. This can't be a bad thing!

My Soday as i call it, is the 22nd of February 2015 since that fateful night on a beach in Queensland my lips have been starved of the powerful substance we call alcohol.


Success built from failure,
The Alcoholic Entrepreneur

www.thealcoholicentrepreneur.com