12 months ago I was drinking alcohol almost daily and to excess, when I say to excess I mean to the point of blackout, I was well and truly an alcoholic and I did not see a way out, I knew I had a problem and I knew something needed to change or I was on a quick journey to a place I did not want to be. It took me a long time to realise I had a drinking problem, you see I was a high functioning alcoholic, I still held down an important job, I paid my bills on time, I kept up a good appearance around family friends and general society, but that was because I planned my drinking times, planned my hangover times and did my best to hide the amount I was drinking from everyone including myself.
But once that idea of having a problem had entered my head it grew and kept growing over the next 6 months. I eventually got to the stage of not only knowing I had a serious problem, but knowing I had to stop, which was a big step towards stopping, but it wasn't until I actually wanted to stop drinking that things started to happen, but I was still in a dilemma, I wanted to stop I just didn't know how, I couldn't imagine my life without alcohol, how would I have fun? what would I do on my weekends? what would people think of me, I was extremely confused and torn, something I can compare it too is when you are in a bad relationship and you know it is the healthier option to just part ways and start your life fresh but you just can't imagine how your life is going to be without the other person and you are scared to make that break!
Well after some time some pretty serious soul searching and a few more drunken slumbers that never ended well, I finally did manage to stop, I decided to stop while I was on holiday and I haven't started again since, I can remember sitting on that beach on the Gold Coast, Queensland Australia, thinking to myself why am I sat here drinking by myself, I don't want to be drinking this drink but here I am sat here drinking it, why? I got drunk that night, very drunk, but I woke up the next morning and something had changed, I felt a change I cannot explain but it was there and to this day I have not picked up a drink.
I had stopped great! I had manage to break the cycle, but now I had to remain stopped and I felt completely lost, I didn't know what to do with myself, I had already started doing some small blog entries and found it really helped, so I kept going with it, but since my first few blog entries something had changed, since that faithful night on the Gold Coast I had found a new found energy I felt I had a message that I could spread and above all I felt and wanted to grow these blogs into something more.
I had extra time, I had spare income and I had added ambition with idea's and passion to go with it, so I continued to blog more frequently, but I still wanted more so I started investigating getting a website built, once I had sourced a web developer and the page was under way I registered the domain name www.thealcoholicentrepreneur.com was born. I was already using the name the alcoholic entrepreneur, in my original blog but this made it real, I had my own domain name with my soon to be own website, this was exciting, I was creating a home base for myself my idea's and my recovery.
The site is still a work in progress and I tweak it most weeks trying to find that perfect formula I have also set up social media accounts and am beginning to get a small following, I am working on a book and have idea's to implement course to the website to help with recovery education and entrepreneurial dreams.
I have no expectations of where this will all lead, I am doing it because it is helping, it is helping keep me busy it is helping me keep focused on my recovery and I am enjoying every minute of it, I spent my time and money on alcohol before my sobriety, sobriety to me is about opportunities, opportunities that were not available while drinking. Don't just get sober, get sober and get rich!
Success built from failure,
The Alcoholic Entrepreneur
www.thealcoholicentrepreneur.com
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